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about me
Name: Noah
nickname: Crucifer
Age: 17
From: Singapore
Faves
Music-->Music with heavy rock influences
Books-->Lotr,harry potter,death note,Rave
Tv shows-->Comedies mostly
Game-->Warcraft 3(dota),Command and Conquer
Sport-->Soccer(midfielder)
Color-->Plain classic black
Horoscope-->Scorpio
Explanation
People keep on asking me what my blog address stands for. I have written in a previous entry what this blog address means but as it'll take a long time to locate it, I'll just give a brief explanation here.
Everyone has a dark side, everyone has a good side to them. No one is completely evil nor perfect. So I have characterised this 2 sides of my as crucifer being my dark side and ntljr as my good side. I can't explain how the name Crucifer came about,but its definitely not because of the superband band lucify. Crucifer was a nickname I had for myself for a long time before that. Ntljr basically stands for what every postive feeling, every postitive emotion and quality I have running through me. I have always looked towards "ntljr" as a source of inspiration, and no matter how down I am, I will cling on to that last bit of humanity and hope of "ntljr". This is hard to explain and I doubt anyone will understand as its a matter of emotions and feelings. What ntljr stands for is obvious to but a few, but suffice it to say that it'll always mean something to me. Always.
Sunday, February 11, 2007
I'm not going to make anymore excuses for myself. Its time for me to do something drastic with my extremely serene laid back relaxed attitude towards life. Time to stand up and if nothing else, bang my head against a wall(phrase used metaphorically). Maybe I'll fail in my endeavour, maybe not. It can't be explained what brought about this sudden change in my outlook of life. I think I've realised that I've got something to prove to someone. I'm not going to stand here and wait anymore. Screw those who give me f***. Everyone tolerance has a certain level. I appreciate those who assisted/supported me. I'll repay you in kind if you ever need it.
Bringing yourself towards uncertainty, every future step forward is another step leading to some conclusion. A grim conclusion looms, yet remember that no matter what, if all else fails, you know you can rely on me. I'll take you through any tough times you're experiencing, if only you'll let me. Just thought you should know..........what I say may seem unbelievable, given my cold and tough exterior behaviour towards you recently, but suffice it to say that I don't want the strong underlying feelings which I have tried so incredibly hard to suppress to reignite. If only you'll let me.......
I dare me to prove
I dare you to move........
wings tear my body apart at [1:56 AM]