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This post is not one of my usual posts. It is mean...
Tonight the music seems so loudI wish that we coul...
I'm not going to make anymore excuses for myself. ...
Every day I wake up and it's SundayWhatever's in m...
Everytime that I look in the mirrorAll these lines...
Has he lost his mind?Can he see or is he blind?Wil...
Take the time to make some senseof what you want t...
I don't know what's worth fighting forOr why I hav...
My hands are tied My mind is blankMy body bruisedN...
See the stone set in your eyes See the thorn twist...
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about me
Name: Noah
nickname: Crucifer
Age: 17
From: Singapore
Faves
Music-->Music with heavy rock influences
Books-->Lotr,harry potter,death note,Rave
Tv shows-->Comedies mostly
Game-->Warcraft 3(dota),Command and Conquer
Sport-->Soccer(midfielder)
Color-->Plain classic black
Horoscope-->Scorpio
Explanation
People keep on asking me what my blog address stands for. I have written in a previous entry what this blog address means but as it'll take a long time to locate it, I'll just give a brief explanation here.
Everyone has a dark side, everyone has a good side to them. No one is completely evil nor perfect. So I have characterised this 2 sides of my as crucifer being my dark side and ntljr as my good side. I can't explain how the name Crucifer came about,but its definitely not because of the superband band lucify. Crucifer was a nickname I had for myself for a long time before that. Ntljr basically stands for what every postive feeling, every postitive emotion and quality I have running through me. I have always looked towards "ntljr" as a source of inspiration, and no matter how down I am, I will cling on to that last bit of humanity and hope of "ntljr". This is hard to explain and I doubt anyone will understand as its a matter of emotions and feelings. What ntljr stands for is obvious to but a few, but suffice it to say that it'll always mean something to me. Always.
Thursday, June 30, 2005
wings tear my body apart at [9:36 PM]
Friday, June 24, 2005
wings tear my body apart at [8:49 PM]
wings tear my body apart at [5:59 PM]
Sunday, June 19, 2005
The more I loved her,the more pain I felt when she hurt me
wings tear my body apart at [12:24 AM]
Friday, June 17, 2005
wings tear my body apart at [9:02 PM]
Sometimes I am afraid of myself
wings tear my body apart at [12:55 PM]
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
wings tear my body apart at [9:26 AM]
Thursday, June 09, 2005
Today was definitely one of the most memorable days in my poly life so far........had Stats ICA in the morning at 8,it ended at 9 so had a 6hrs break b4 the next lesson,econs......during 6hrs break went to eat and discuss stats project....planned to go for my job interview but bcos the discussion took longer than expected i didn't go.......stayed in school the whole 6 hrs so was super super SUPER bored and my mind was wasting away.......then came econs where i totally was sent to another dimension,felt so out of my body,so tired in my mind.....hard to describe the feeling.....lethargic i guess............then we had another 3 hrs break before accounts where ate dinner then went library to use Jek Yew's labtop play games......however,after using for awhile,felt quite bored and i suppose because of the sooooo loooooong breaks the whole day,felt very hyper too,so went to act with shawn with Jek Yew using his camera to film all that we acted,we act matrix fighting,bollywood fighting,then after that went to act power ranger and house of wax.......ya la,damn childish right......totally wasn't myself,felt almost drunk,and we all act in the library,lucky nobody there otherwise damn pai seh la,the power ranger and house of wax was filmed outside the library though........hahahahax.........really couldn't stop laughing la,laugh all the way,then after accounts when going home,still feeling super super hyper,then skip to mrt station with shawn and sean like little kids,we also actually hold hands in a circle and dance our way to the mrt station la.........damn funny and childish man.......cannot tahan la,really damn super hyper........very rare to get me in this CRAZY mood......hahahax.....got all the pics and videos frm Jek Yew(class photographer) already.......but now feeling very tired......used up too much energy i guess.........dats y i cut short this entry.......so going to slp now.........zzzzzzzzzzzz
wings tear my body apart at [11:58 PM]
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
Finally the speech is over,all the time i spent on my speech gone in just 3 minutes. The speech was ok,kind of fumbled my words at time and slightly overshot the time limit but other than that it was ok.Tommorow is statistics ICA,dunno how i'll do.......anyway gotta end here,got to start studying for stats......sigh.....nvm,just 1 more day to go b4 the holidays........
wings tear my body apart at [10:24 PM]
Monday, June 06, 2005
My oral communication is this wednesday and i'm totally not prepared.....okie,maybe i got 3/4 of the info i need but the other 1/4 is damn hard to find.......went to visit the bengawan solo head office out of desperation,tried calling their hotline,both also no god damn use la.......the hotline always say they transfer me to the correct personel then in the end nvr transfer,waste my handphone money calling them,then go there ask them,the auntie keep on saying "huh?" then ask me call the hotline......wa lao damn pissed man,what sort of stupid customer service is that??? Then the articles i try to find from internet,used the library internet,try the search engine from yahoo to google to msn to everything also i try.......but the result they produce can really make me dunno want to laugh or cry la......search for bengawan solo then can come out other ppl's blog la,music download la a lot of other shit,totally unrelated to bengawan solo,all my friends try to help me search also no use,all come out the same thing.....wa lao,stress ah........still only got 1 more day to settle all my affairs......haiz,suay la kena bengawan solo,if i get bread talk then shiok la,the lex got so much info he don't even know how to summarise........at least his "headache" is a nice headache,he can pick and choose....not like me,but what the hell la,tmr got Jean Yuan Class,got 3 hours to go slooooooowwwly search hahax.......but what scares me the most in this whole thing is my sudden lack of patience......i used to be a very VERY patient guy,almost never can u find me angry,depressed maybe but never angry,however nowadays i find myself getting angry easily but i try my best to keep it inside me and not show out,like for example,the auntie at bengawan solo keep on "huh" me,i almost want to shout at her,scold her,felt like taking the chair and thrash the whole place.....then on sunday when i was playing soccer,got angry with one of the players on my team who only know how to keep on talking trash and scolding people but play a cow like that,then had really violent thoughts rushing through my head........i dunno whats happening to me......i never used to be like this.......i must learn to keep my inner demons where they belong,deep inside me.......its midnight but i think i'll go down take a walk in the night now......i find it always relaxes me,in fact while i'm typing all of my experience i getting more and more angry so better cool down and think about my life.........what has happened in my life,what is happening and what will most probably happen.........actually i find life rather meaningless now,everything was and is so routine......i need something special,something to bring meaning to my life.......
wings tear my body apart at [11:59 PM]
Saturday, June 04, 2005
I love walking in the night
wings tear my body apart at [12:54 PM]
Thursday, June 02, 2005
Life is really weird
wings tear my body apart at [8:58 PM]