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Name: Noah
nickname: Crucifer
Age: 17
From: Singapore
Faves
Music-->Music with heavy rock influences
Books-->Lotr,harry potter,death note,Rave
Tv shows-->Comedies mostly
Game-->Warcraft 3(dota),Command and Conquer
Sport-->Soccer(midfielder)
Color-->Plain classic black
Horoscope-->Scorpio
Explanation
People keep on asking me what my blog address stands for. I have written in a previous entry what this blog address means but as it'll take a long time to locate it, I'll just give a brief explanation here.
Everyone has a dark side, everyone has a good side to them. No one is completely evil nor perfect. So I have characterised this 2 sides of my as crucifer being my dark side and ntljr as my good side. I can't explain how the name Crucifer came about,but its definitely not because of the superband band lucify. Crucifer was a nickname I had for myself for a long time before that. Ntljr basically stands for what every postive feeling, every postitive emotion and quality I have running through me. I have always looked towards "ntljr" as a source of inspiration, and no matter how down I am, I will cling on to that last bit of humanity and hope of "ntljr". This is hard to explain and I doubt anyone will understand as its a matter of emotions and feelings. What ntljr stands for is obvious to but a few, but suffice it to say that it'll always mean something to me. Always.
Sunday, July 31, 2005
Thx Prim H.!!!!!
wings tear my body apart at [2:20 PM]
Lets see....what do i have to say........Friday was a funny/not so happy day. It was funny due to the show & tell,laugh until my eyes got tears,my stomach pain,until my jaws ached,everything was just so damn funny la...hahax.....wa lao still laughing as i think about it now. And furthurmore,i actually passed my accounting!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!!!!,thought i was doomed to fail after i did the test because i thought i made a crucial mistake........turns out i didn't!!! Hehehe.......so now i just need to pass the accounting exam and i'll still pass overall. The only subject i think i may not be able to pass now is internet and web tech class....haiz........Anyway as i was saying,Friday was also a not so happy day as one of my good FRIEND had some problems but i won't say it out here but don't be too upset, everything can be solved,trust me, someway,somehow,somewhere,something will happen and change him for the better. Until then,you've gotta be EXTRA and more patient than you've already been. Good things don't come easy and easy things don't come good(doesn't sound right but u get my meaning)...........
Oh ya,with regards to my previous post,some people have already figured out who that person is, actually figured out is not the right word. They know who that person is because they ask and ask and ask and ask and ask and ask and ask me for clues etc. until i gave in and gave them a very BIG clue. The only one who actually figured it out is Felicia. Hahax,but anyway as i said,i still don't know if i really like her for her or do i just like a shadow,a phantom of JR that i see in her.......I don't want to hurt anyone.......Lolz,i'll give this some thought,maybe get to know her better and make my judgement. I think that the crucial step i must take next is getting rid of my feelings of JR first.......a extremely hard thing to do as i've been trying to do that for 7 months already but still can't forget her. Hahax,too bad too bad,i'll guess i have to my own advice and be more patient and hope that 1 day I'll finally love someone else.
wings tear my body apart at [1:24 PM]
Friday, July 29, 2005
It seems that my group did rather well for my Effective Oral Communication(EOC) ICA,the teacher say my industry(food) was second and that it was a very close fight between my industry and the winning industry(furniture),have to thank all my group members Si Yan,lex,Suzy,Jade.....anyway,today had to do the econs ICA presentation,went ok,i mean econs to me is one suck lemon topic and very hard to make the presentation interesting because got a lot of figures,so my group's skit was rather plain but don't care la,he say the whole class did quite well and since he didn't really give us much trouble during the Q and A section,i think we did quite well. However i felt that other group's skit were quite interesting especially Si Yan's group as it was quite funny because they poked fun at Mr Ho and Maria the maid made me laugh until stomach pain. My "wife" Wan Yi also look damn funny,because she was playing a devil so she wore a cap with two ice cream cones tied there as the horns,look really funny sia hahahax.....Today also had statistics ICA, the bloody paper was so damn freaking easy,shouldn't have cracked my head studying the whole day yesterday and wake up especially early to study this morning and make me lose my oh so precious sleep, bloody hell feel so cheated la. Unless i made any careless mistake,i think i'll score for this stats paper. Hehehe,tomorow supposedly got accounts show and tell but because one of my team members(jek yew) requested that we do it next week as he had to go back to malaysia so tommorow's accounting lesson is going to be damn slack and fun for me,see all the others make a fool of themselves. Wah tommorow also was supposed to be my stats make up lecture but then the "great" Dr Badri dunno why go cancel,then because of that i think i pontang stats too much liao,very scared kena debarred from exam........wa lao if kena debarred then i really nothing to say liao. But hopefully not la,knowing Badri he will have another lecture so can go for that one. Ahhhh............anyways,going to sleep already............
Since everybody has been asking me how is the situation with me and JR,i would like to clarify that I have indeed given up. And do I have a new target in mind? Hahax......well,I don't really know,I sort of developing some feelings for this person in my class but in my opinion that person reminds me of JR,thats why I have some feelings so its nothing too serious.........hahax.....
wings tear my body apart at [12:12 AM]
Friday, July 22, 2005
Wow,this week has been a tiring week for me........projects due on monday and wednesday which meant that from sunday to wednesday,i was busy with the projects. Have to go to school earlier on both monday and wednesday to practice somemore,total lack of sleep. Was so tired and sleepy yesterday that i didn't go for my econs tutorial,went to play pool(wow,i'm improving) instead with my classmates before heading for home where i thought i could finally catch up on some sleep. Unfortunately my mum had some guests(my distant uncle and auntie) over and the kids were extremely noisy and whats more I had to entertain the kids. So in the end i slept at 12+pm and today couldn't wake up on time for the stats lecture(make up) because i was totally knocked flat out. When I woke up,couldn't even move,my body so tired asking me to go back to sleep. Haiz......but anyway now hopefully won't be so stressful anymore since 2 of the projects are out of the way......but what the hell am I talking about,the exams are just round the corner ahhhh....... Anyway finished reading Harry Potter and the HBP and its great,really unexpected. Oh ya,broke my specs while playing soccer so i'm getting my contact lens(finally!) and a new pair of specs today.....hehehe.......anyway going out now to do econs projects and later have to go for accounts somemore............damn sianxz......!!!!!
wings tear my body apart at [10:58 AM]
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
In internet and web tech class now...........doing microsoft frontpage,learning about taables. Doing my EOC project also now,planning my speech,damn tomorrow got to present already. Sianzzzzzz.................later gotta go run away from my class as i have to go buy curry puff for EOC project. Oh gee,its later already,gotta run.
wings tear my body apart at [9:09 AM]
Friday, July 15, 2005
Exams are coming,projects are due,my accounting ICA test and Internet Web Tech ICA all terribly done by me.................stressed out man. Going to have to turbo my studying now,exams are just round the corner,cannot be a online student. Other than that,been feeling sick because i AM sick. LolZ,talking cock here. Anyways, its been a long week, everything so tiring for me, my body aching from playing soccer last sunday, can't even move properly for 3 days. Somemore my team got thrashed in the soccer match so it really was a bad and tiring week. LoLz,the scoreline is downright embarassing so not going to put it out here =p.Anyway i'm determined to train like crazy to avoid such a embarrasement again. Hahax, later going to visit my grandma, going to be quite boring, because i don't really talk to my grandma, she only understand very VERY little english and i dunno how to communicate with her. Haiz, guess i'm going to have to bring my study things there. Tomorow going to work at delifrance again, 9-3 shift, sianz...........but what the hell,tommorow is the day when the harry potter and the half blood prince come out!!!!! WooHoo!!!! Heh,can't wait for it. Anyway on the subject of books, Rave is reaching the climax and it really is exciting and unexpected and sad. Thats why i like Rave, it is totally fictional and full of weird characters and weapons and about magic but it brings out the reality in life and the fragility of it. War is not about good vs bad. Its about death,pain and misery. No matter how powerful we may become,we will still die eventually. LolZ, anyway been reading in the newspaper about the National Kidney Foundation(NKF) CEO having a high salary and lots of perks and many people have been reacting strongly to the news of his extravagant lifestyle. Well,my opinion is, people do not donate money for him to live the life of a millionaire, people donate because they want to help those that really need the money and I think many people have been put off from donating to the NKF from now on,even though he has already resigned. Once bitten twice shy. HaHax.........anyway going off to buy my dinner now,wonder what i'm going to have......
I am the brooding night and you are the dawn
Only those who have been burned before
Truly know the meaning of Hell's flaming core
wings tear my body apart at [4:17 PM]
Sunday, July 03, 2005
These few weeks have been tiring for me.......mentally that is. School has started after 2 weeks of holidays which were mostly spent sleeping and doing project. Didn't really go out during the holidays as I hadn't gotten my concession card yet then(i lazy to get la). Anyway I didn't want to go out too much as I now have a intense liking for being alone with nobody in sight, just me and my MP3 in the room, staring into space and thinking. Thinking, wondering, and dreaming.......and at night, i'll go downstairs and walk to a field where it is so dark i can hardly see the road i'm walking on and i'll sit on the road and enjoy the night, the darkness it brings, the peace, the calm and the cool breeze all bring me to a surreal place of serenity........ That's why my friends have described me as a colder even darker person nowadays, I suppose I've become some sort of a loner. I still enjoy soccer and playing computer and all that, I still put on a mask of happiness when I'm outside but I've been wearing the mask for too long and its starting to show cracks here and there. The fact is I still can't stop loving her and the frustration at not being able to do that is boiling over. Anyway i'm listening to Hammerfall now and its one hell of a band so i recommend all of you to listen to them.
Looking down into those eyes
I know I'll be lost and never found again
Kiss me once and i'll surely melt and die
Kiss me twice and i'll never leave your side
Dreams Come True
wings tear my body apart at [1:31 PM]