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about me
Name: Noah
nickname: Crucifer
Age: 17
From: Singapore
Faves
Music-->Music with heavy rock influences
Books-->Lotr,harry potter,death note,Rave
Tv shows-->Comedies mostly
Game-->Warcraft 3(dota),Command and Conquer
Sport-->Soccer(midfielder)
Color-->Plain classic black
Horoscope-->Scorpio
Explanation
People keep on asking me what my blog address stands for. I have written in a previous entry what this blog address means but as it'll take a long time to locate it, I'll just give a brief explanation here.
Everyone has a dark side, everyone has a good side to them. No one is completely evil nor perfect. So I have characterised this 2 sides of my as crucifer being my dark side and ntljr as my good side. I can't explain how the name Crucifer came about,but its definitely not because of the superband band lucify. Crucifer was a nickname I had for myself for a long time before that. Ntljr basically stands for what every postive feeling, every postitive emotion and quality I have running through me. I have always looked towards "ntljr" as a source of inspiration, and no matter how down I am, I will cling on to that last bit of humanity and hope of "ntljr". This is hard to explain and I doubt anyone will understand as its a matter of emotions and feelings. What ntljr stands for is obvious to but a few, but suffice it to say that it'll always mean something to me. Always.
Sunday, July 03, 2005
These few weeks have been tiring for me.......mentally that is. School has started after 2 weeks of holidays which were mostly spent sleeping and doing project. Didn't really go out during the holidays as I hadn't gotten my concession card yet then(i lazy to get la). Anyway I didn't want to go out too much as I now have a intense liking for being alone with nobody in sight, just me and my MP3 in the room, staring into space and thinking. Thinking, wondering, and dreaming.......and at night, i'll go downstairs and walk to a field where it is so dark i can hardly see the road i'm walking on and i'll sit on the road and enjoy the night, the darkness it brings, the peace, the calm and the cool breeze all bring me to a surreal place of serenity........ That's why my friends have described me as a colder even darker person nowadays, I suppose I've become some sort of a loner. I still enjoy soccer and playing computer and all that, I still put on a mask of happiness when I'm outside but I've been wearing the mask for too long and its starting to show cracks here and there. The fact is I still can't stop loving her and the frustration at not being able to do that is boiling over. Anyway i'm listening to Hammerfall now and its one hell of a band so i recommend all of you to listen to them.
Looking down into those eyes
I know I'll be lost and never found again
Kiss me once and i'll surely melt and die
Kiss me twice and i'll never leave your side
Dreams Come True
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