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about me
Name: Noah
nickname: Crucifer
Age: 17
From: Singapore
Faves
Music-->Music with heavy rock influences
Books-->Lotr,harry potter,death note,Rave
Tv shows-->Comedies mostly
Game-->Warcraft 3(dota),Command and Conquer
Sport-->Soccer(midfielder)
Color-->Plain classic black
Horoscope-->Scorpio
Explanation
People keep on asking me what my blog address stands for. I have written in a previous entry what this blog address means but as it'll take a long time to locate it, I'll just give a brief explanation here.
Everyone has a dark side, everyone has a good side to them. No one is completely evil nor perfect. So I have characterised this 2 sides of my as crucifer being my dark side and ntljr as my good side. I can't explain how the name Crucifer came about,but its definitely not because of the superband band lucify. Crucifer was a nickname I had for myself for a long time before that. Ntljr basically stands for what every postive feeling, every postitive emotion and quality I have running through me. I have always looked towards "ntljr" as a source of inspiration, and no matter how down I am, I will cling on to that last bit of humanity and hope of "ntljr". This is hard to explain and I doubt anyone will understand as its a matter of emotions and feelings. What ntljr stands for is obvious to but a few, but suffice it to say that it'll always mean something to me. Always.
Friday, September 23, 2005
Nothing much to update,just been lazing and slacking around at home.....going to look for a job soon,can't stand working at delifrance anymore.......the pay sucks,the work sucks even more and its at Gleneagles hospital which is far from my house. Oh well,with around 1 month or so left of my holidays i don't know if can find another temporary job. My results also out,worst subject was POM(D+). The rest were ok,Econs(C),Stats(B),Accounts(B+),EOC(B+),IWT(C).......frankly i expected better results,especially for econs and stats but oh well whats done is done. Hahax, I haven't jogged in a long time even though its the holidays but that's because the weather has been pretty cloudy and rainy hais.........will the weather break soon? Also been working on this sort of "necklace" with the materials that Dior gave me,long enough to go around someone's neck at least twice,quite strenous for me because my fingers not that nimble and the beads are quite small and the string even smaller but finally completed it. Hahax,sounds so unlike me,doing this sort of thing. Lolx,anyway not much mood to write anymore,so going to end here.
"I don't want the world to see me
Cause i don't think they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am........."
wings tear my body apart at [5:05 PM]
Sunday, September 11, 2005
Been working from sept 2 at the disney princess event at causeway point,was working with Wan Yi and another girl called Jocelyn. Our job is mainly to register kids for the workshops after their parents spent $50 at causeway pt. It was quite tiring for the first day as i had to bring the free gifts(umbrellas) from the 6th floor to the basement 1 and it was no joke carrying 50 umbrellas at once. Tough work,but after that it was simple. I just had to make sure that the parents had the royal pass(which they exchanged for after spending $50) then register for their kids. Some parents are quite polite and nice,some parents are just so fucking rude,luckily I've worked as a waiter before so know how to take any shit they throw at me with a smile. Some kids are so cute,really very super cute,some kids however really deserved to be scolded and smacked. Well,the royal passes were all given out by saturday(sept3) as this is singapore after all and all the people are so kiasu so it was no surprise that all 1100 was given out after just one day. So for about 3 days in a row we just sat down and literally stared into space and telling some stubborn customers who must ask a few times before coming to the sad conclusion that there was really no more royal passes even though there was a sign that said no more royal passes already. However after that,due to some customer complains and due to the fact that the some workshops were empty,the management decided to let them register without the royal passes,just needing to show the reciept to us so we can verify it. This meant that we were slightly busier but not by very much as it was the weekday. But by Saturday(sept 10) all the workshops were fully registered. Anyway by Wednesday i became wise and took a book to read there("The rape of Nanjing",one hell of a great book about world war 2 in china) and i lent Wan Yi my Death Note comics where she became hooked on it too,death note is just that nice.....................There was this promoter called guan ming from RP working near us who i realised shared a lot of similarities to me(left handed,arsenal supporter,come from fuchun sec,play soccer,same chem teacher,love the sound of the electric guitar),anyway made friends with him so maybe will be calling him down to play soccer one fine day. There was also this promoter Esther who was quite pretty,had the innocent face and the complexion was quite superb working for Metro and she was very hard working compared to guan ming who slacked around a lot. The food at causeway point was simply expensive especially at the bloody foodcourt. Wan Yi came back from lunch one afternoon fuming mad because a bowl of noodles with vegertables cost $5!!! Craziness. 1 cup of ribena at that food court costs $1.50......my goodness,the food up there is only average and they're charging so high for everything,might as well just put a sign up there to tell us that they're actually robbers in disguise. Stupid man,in the end have to eat either fast food or buns everyday,so sian........Another surprising thing was that although many of my friends lived in woodlands,during the course of my work i only met one friend by accident at causeway point when i expected many of my friends to be actually shopping in causeway point or something. Of course some friends i saw were there to see me work/slack but that didn't count as it wasn't by accident. Oh and Wan Yi,if you're reading this...........YOU"RE NOT FAT!!!! You're just the right size la...............hahax.........anyway now my work is over going to relax awhile before looking for another job...........Also as a side note,i couldn't stop thinking of her...................hahax...............I am,as Dior fave phrase goes,"so stupid"........lolz
wings tear my body apart at [12:11 AM]
Thursday, September 01, 2005
Wow,interesting 4 days i've had this week. As mentioned,i had a class chalet at Aloha Changi and the i went there at night,met shawn,khairul,ash,syam at tampines MRT first. The bus journey frm Woodlands to Tampines(making a stop at my cousin's house to collect the PS2) took around 1hr 45 min.....my MP3 power frm 3 bars reduced to 2 bars. Then frm tampines took to the chalet,took around 45 min,my MP3 frm 2 bars reduced to 1 bar........damn sad......taking the bus for so long does things to you.....bad things........hahax...anyway went there and realised our chalet was right beside the old changi hospital which if Jek Yew didn't tell me,i wouldn't have realised it was there bcos it was so dark and i couldn't see anything but trees.....spooky......met lex and the others who went there much earlier. The MC6 were watching a VCD,so the rest of us decided to first play some cards,monopoly(i lost in monopoly,first time in my life i ever lost in that game) etc. to pass the time. Then around 12 midnight,most of us went to changi village to "a-hem" see the bapoks which frequented the area,we were careful not to make eye contact with any of them,the guys especially. Some of them were really scantily clad,walking around,they look exactly like women but when i hear them talk to each other still can hear that its a man's voice. Hehehex,went to the 7-11 and Cheers to buy some supplies like potato chips and instant noodle bcos the "great chef" shawn say he want to cook. Back at the chalet,the guys played the PS2 while shawn cooked the mee. Quite a nice meal,after that i stopped playing the PS2 and went up to the guys room where Lex,Sean and Jek Yew were having a talk. The topic was about why whenever in a grp,guys would go with guys and girls would go with girls and why they couldn't talk with each other like normal and why there is a barrier whenever guys and girls talk.....the topic then swtiched to best friends and it seems that everyone has or had a best friend except me.....the reason being that I don't really need or want a best friend,i'm more of a person who trusts only myself and I'm also prefer to keep to myself. I do have many many good friends though. Anyway it was a really intriguing talk session between the guys and we didn't sleep at all until around 7am where we all took a nap. Unfortunately,some guys had to sleep on the floor bcos there was only 1 bed and therefore we all woke up around 8+. Intrestingly,the MC6 watched the vcds from the time they went to the chalet non-stop till around noon the second day when they finally finished the show. Quite unbelievable man,how can any1 stare at a labtop screen wathcing some drama serial for so long??? Hahax,weird man......2nd day was mainly preparing for the bbq at night.....also there were some unpleasant scenes which i will not mention here but involved exchange of words between certain people.........haiz...........can't people just give in for the sake of peace? Pride is so destructive. Then 2nd day bbq was not bad,got chicken wings,pizza,sausage etc. quite filling. Mr Hang and Mr Ho came also and they bought chips and ice creams respectively. Then after that went home around 10+,wanted to stay but was feeling very tired and the next day was teacher's day too so wanted to go back to school on that day. Sent Wan Yi home as it was very late,then finally slept.......woke up late the next day so unfortunately didn't see all of my classmates but managed to see some teacher's in school. I only saw Jasmine,Sunita,Jeffery,Chow Ee,Saraswathi,Jasper, Kai boon etc. For the teacher's,saw Mr Bambang,Mr Tan JP,Mrs Rajinee(?),Ms Chua. Quite fun la,seeing all my teachers again and seeing my frens. Wasted couldn't see all of them.........................hehehehex.....lolx..............i'll end here for now,tomorrow starting work at Causeway Point at the Disney Princess thing,working as a customer service staff..........hope it'll be fun
Pride and respect is what everybody wants
But only few are willing to risk death for that
Somebody who cannot uphold their beliefs is pathetic in this world or the next
I hope that when I die,I will die in dignity holding on to my beliefs and my love
wings tear my body apart at [10:01 PM]