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about me
Name: Noah
nickname: Crucifer
Age: 17
From: Singapore
Faves
Music-->Music with heavy rock influences
Books-->Lotr,harry potter,death note,Rave
Tv shows-->Comedies mostly
Game-->Warcraft 3(dota),Command and Conquer
Sport-->Soccer(midfielder)
Color-->Plain classic black
Horoscope-->Scorpio
Explanation
People keep on asking me what my blog address stands for. I have written in a previous entry what this blog address means but as it'll take a long time to locate it, I'll just give a brief explanation here.
Everyone has a dark side, everyone has a good side to them. No one is completely evil nor perfect. So I have characterised this 2 sides of my as crucifer being my dark side and ntljr as my good side. I can't explain how the name Crucifer came about,but its definitely not because of the superband band lucify. Crucifer was a nickname I had for myself for a long time before that. Ntljr basically stands for what every postive feeling, every postitive emotion and quality I have running through me. I have always looked towards "ntljr" as a source of inspiration, and no matter how down I am, I will cling on to that last bit of humanity and hope of "ntljr". This is hard to explain and I doubt anyone will understand as its a matter of emotions and feelings. What ntljr stands for is obvious to but a few, but suffice it to say that it'll always mean something to me. Always.
Saturday, October 29, 2005
Went to east coast with my class friends on Friday,had one hell of a great time cycling and learning how to roller blade. Fell a few times of course since this is the first time roller blading but I just kept on practicing it till I finally got a hang of it........sort of. Anyway poor Jek Yew never did manage to roller blade properly and got a bump on his head at the end of it all after Lex's bicycle fell on him. Nonetheless Sean finally learnt how to cycle so we all sort of "succeded" in one of our objectives. Was tired after 4 hours of cycling and rollerblading but Lihua wanted to go kite flying somemore. However Jek Yew and Sean had to go back and Wan Yi and I was tired so we decided to go home instead. Was so tired that we both fell asleep on the train,something that I have never done before. Before that however there were this group of guys in the train and I think they wanted to talk to Wan Yi or something but I think as I was talking to Wan Yi they didn't try. Really man,I can't tahan this sort of Ah bengs. Anyway today played soccer match,it ended 4-4 in a match which I felt we could and should have easily won but for some errors in our defence they managed to get a draw against us. It was so damn tiring especially since the centre of the field was so bloody muddy till you actually sink inside the mud when you're running and this seriously hampers our passing and running. Nonetheless I think we are on the right track and improving except for Jason who still seems lost. Heh think I'm going to slp now.......tired la.
What do you do when you're haunted by something you done in the best interest of someone you care about.........
Hey angel can you tell me,
Will you lead me to the place
Full of heat,in the fire
for I only brought disgrace
(I am not to blame,If I fully knew)
Hey angel will you take me
To the judgement of his rage
Hey will I die
For I couldn't stop the fate
(To do the right thing as I have been told)
A redeemer or devastation
It wasn't really meant
For the sin of this dreamer
Who killed the life you sent
(How to stop myself from feeling guilt)
Hey I don't know but I wondered
Days of thinking over and again
Maybe i'm stoned by the inscense
Do I rise or just descent?
Taken from the song "Seven Angels" by Avantasia with edited lyrics to suit what i'm feeling now.
wings tear my body apart at [12:19 PM]
Saturday, October 22, 2005
School started this week and it was really great to see everyone once again.....all our new lecturers also seem good. My parents went to vietnam for a holiday this week so the house was mine but I had a house guest. Who and why the person was staying with me I won't reveal as its a private matter of that person(just know that i care for that person). Seriously though, I think I did all i could to help that person. Anyways i'm not really in the mood to blog anything. Even though I'm happy to see all of my friends again,this week and the past 2 weeks have been a troubling week,concerned with the problem of that person. Well,I guess i'll end here for now.....
wings tear my body apart at [1:30 PM]
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Decided to update my blog.........recently went through my things trying to clear my room and i saw many photographs of my past. From the time I was a little toddler posing with my godfather's dog to the time I was in primary school,then to secondary school and finally my polytechnic life. It was fun looking at those photos and remembering all those years in my past. Some good memories,some bad,but all precious to me as all these memories are part of me. Remembering the time when as a little child i would be afraid to go down the slide at the playground,the time when I without knowing much took hold of a cockroach and tried to eat it(yucks,memory still haunts me)........then in Primary school when I being the bad boy i was then, forged my parent's signature, got into fights and played soccer like there was no tomorrow. Then came secondary school where in sec 1 the class boys were united,there was this class spirit and it was one good year,all those WWE "fights",all those chokeslams, angleslam and everything else. I was incredibly fat then and it was no easy task trying to carry me up.....hahax still remember hazwan tried but failed miserably,remembering the teacher(???) from hell Mr Simon Matthews who basically sat there,asked for a newspaper and did nothing else but read it and give hell to anybody who made the slightest noise, also remembered how I and Danny and Kok Loong called Pizza Hut and ordered lots of things for that Mr simon matthews for revenge after he scolded Kok Loong......remember the time when I went for the class bbq which was during my birthday and they celebrated my birthday for me,in standard fashion when anybody's birthday came around........a good class whacking!!! Then came secondary 2 when my form teacher was Mrs Unni and I had several clashes with her and how I and aliff used to ally together and make stupid songs about ahmad. Hahax, still can remember how it went........Then came secondary 3 when my class was split up after the streaming and I went to the science stream which i realise now was a mistake because i suck at science. So in secondary 3 had new classmates and that was when I,Hazwan,Chow Ee,Safary,Yen Ann became very good friends. Still remember all the laughs, all the lame jokes from chow ee,all the dirty jokes from hazwan, all the uncontrolled laughter of safary. It was then when I forgot how but a few of our classmates got to know Mr Daryl who was sort of in charge of the computer lab and how all of us would go to the computer lab and play games. It was especially fun when we played counter strike in there with mr daryl.....hahax,the memories still put a smile on my face, it was really one of the best memories I had in my secondary school. Then came secondary 4 when it was quite stressful because of the O' lvl exams and because of some unspoken internal conflict in our class which effectively split the class into 2. Of course the two groups maintained cordial relationships with each other but still i could sense some tension. Anyhow, that year passed quickly and then came graduation night which is one night I would probably never ever forget in my entire life. It was the first time(and hopefully the last) where I felt.........I dunno how to describe it and for a few days after Grad night it was more or less the same feeling. I didn't sleep well for these few days,always waking up with that scene in my mind. But i eventually got out of that depression and thats when i had a taste of Real working life. It was also the time when i met this wonderful girl who eventually became my girlfriend but our relationship didn't last because of me. So anyhow my poly life came around and i'm enjoying it immensely with all my very great friends so hopefully this elation will last for as long as i'm here in Poly.
wings tear my body apart at [11:45 AM]