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*Jun Rui,
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Jek Yew,
Darius,
Kee Seng(Lex),
Shawn,
Gilbert,
Li Qin,
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This post is not one of my usual posts. It is mean...
Tonight the music seems so loudI wish that we coul...
I'm not going to make anymore excuses for myself. ...
Every day I wake up and it's SundayWhatever's in m...
Everytime that I look in the mirrorAll these lines...
Has he lost his mind?Can he see or is he blind?Wil...
Take the time to make some senseof what you want t...
I don't know what's worth fighting forOr why I hav...
My hands are tied My mind is blankMy body bruisedN...
See the stone set in your eyes See the thorn twist...
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credits
about me
Name: Noah
nickname: Crucifer
Age: 17
From: Singapore
Faves
Music-->Music with heavy rock influences
Books-->Lotr,harry potter,death note,Rave
Tv shows-->Comedies mostly
Game-->Warcraft 3(dota),Command and Conquer
Sport-->Soccer(midfielder)
Color-->Plain classic black
Horoscope-->Scorpio
Explanation
People keep on asking me what my blog address stands for. I have written in a previous entry what this blog address means but as it'll take a long time to locate it, I'll just give a brief explanation here.
Everyone has a dark side, everyone has a good side to them. No one is completely evil nor perfect. So I have characterised this 2 sides of my as crucifer being my dark side and ntljr as my good side. I can't explain how the name Crucifer came about,but its definitely not because of the superband band lucify. Crucifer was a nickname I had for myself for a long time before that. Ntljr basically stands for what every postive feeling, every postitive emotion and quality I have running through me. I have always looked towards "ntljr" as a source of inspiration, and no matter how down I am, I will cling on to that last bit of humanity and hope of "ntljr". This is hard to explain and I doubt anyone will understand as its a matter of emotions and feelings. What ntljr stands for is obvious to but a few, but suffice it to say that it'll always mean something to me. Always.
Friday, November 25, 2005
The sole purpose of this short blog post is to thank Wan Yi.........she helped me understand something which had been bothering me for a very loooonnnnnngggg time.Thanks a lot "wife"!!!! I finally know why..........................and a part of me is sort of relieved.................really really thank you Wan Yi........
wings tear my body apart at [1:53 AM]
Sunday, November 20, 2005
If you're don't have the fucking guts to take responsibility for what you've done,then don't come and start blaming me for trying my best to do what I can for my friend. Don't come and challenge me to fight and its extremely disgusting to see a pathetic shithole writhing on the floor in pain........understand this,I did what I could to help her,so what if I paid for it? So what if I encouraged to go ahead with the operation? I thought it was the best option for her. I'm the only one whom she trusted enough to ask for help and advise,so don't come and accuse me of meddling in other people's affairs. You think I don't feel guilty,you think I don't question my morals,my decision? How many sleepless nights have I endured with the overwhelming sense of guilt keeping me awake,with the scene at the clinic,the realisation,all haunting me in my dreams for weeks to come. She has come to grips with it and is moving on with her life,she's stronger than I thought and I admire her for that. You should too,I don't care if you wish you should have done more,because when it came to the wire you did nothing and shunned responsibility and "ran" away from the problem which you caused. Now when everything's done you come and find trouble with me for my part......please just leave me alone from now on,you should really start finding at least a hint of a life.....
Btw to clear all the qns,my blog url change because I decided that this url address suits me more. ntljr---signifies my "good" side while crucifer signifies my "bad" side. It is because of JR that I decided to try and become the perfect person because I know JR deserves no one but the best without realising that she wasn't looking for THE perfect person but for the perfect person FOR her.Nonetheless,it made me a better person and I managed to curb several shortcomings of mine. Crucifer is another name which I gave myself. I listen to a lot of metal music it influenced me to come up with this name. Since it was through metal music that I once turned slightly satanic,It would be a suiltable name for my "bad" side. Its also my gaming name.....therefore I find that these two nicknames signify my good side and bad side......I know you are thinking that its slightly stupid but..................................do I really care what you think?
wings tear my body apart at [10:23 PM]
Sunday, November 13, 2005
Finally done the 2 ICAs,stats and business application,the business application damn screwed up man,hopefully can pass......oh well I guess I can look foward to a soccer match this coming week,against category C NS men,which means men in the army who have been assigned desk jobs so hopefully they won't be that fit or our team will get thrashed.......
I'm tired,really tired........dunno why.................
To those who have been bugging me to move on from JR:
YOU WIN
I'm really tired of arguing with you guys.........
I am moving on
I will eventually fall in love with someone else
But you guys should really stop trying to influence me to go after Wan Yi........
SERIOUSLY!!!!
Let things take its course,if happen I develop feelings for her than we'll see
As of yet though....
wings tear my body apart at [10:05 PM]