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This post is not one of my usual posts. It is mean...
Tonight the music seems so loudI wish that we coul...
I'm not going to make anymore excuses for myself. ...
Every day I wake up and it's SundayWhatever's in m...
Everytime that I look in the mirrorAll these lines...
Has he lost his mind?Can he see or is he blind?Wil...
Take the time to make some senseof what you want t...
I don't know what's worth fighting forOr why I hav...
My hands are tied My mind is blankMy body bruisedN...
See the stone set in your eyes See the thorn twist...
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credits
about me
Name: Noah
nickname: Crucifer
Age: 17
From: Singapore
Faves
Music-->Music with heavy rock influences
Books-->Lotr,harry potter,death note,Rave
Tv shows-->Comedies mostly
Game-->Warcraft 3(dota),Command and Conquer
Sport-->Soccer(midfielder)
Color-->Plain classic black
Horoscope-->Scorpio
Explanation
People keep on asking me what my blog address stands for. I have written in a previous entry what this blog address means but as it'll take a long time to locate it, I'll just give a brief explanation here.
Everyone has a dark side, everyone has a good side to them. No one is completely evil nor perfect. So I have characterised this 2 sides of my as crucifer being my dark side and ntljr as my good side. I can't explain how the name Crucifer came about,but its definitely not because of the superband band lucify. Crucifer was a nickname I had for myself for a long time before that. Ntljr basically stands for what every postive feeling, every postitive emotion and quality I have running through me. I have always looked towards "ntljr" as a source of inspiration, and no matter how down I am, I will cling on to that last bit of humanity and hope of "ntljr". This is hard to explain and I doubt anyone will understand as its a matter of emotions and feelings. What ntljr stands for is obvious to but a few, but suffice it to say that it'll always mean something to me. Always.
Thursday, April 27, 2006
I am getting lazier and lazier. Indeed, 2 weeks into the new semester and I have already skipped a total of around 5 hours of lessons? Hahaha, most of them are morning lessons and even though it starts at 9 instead of 8, I still can't wake up on time. Most lessons still suck, EFMA is killing me badly, business finance looks threatening(and boring), business law is interesting and ICT is not too bad I guess. Surprisingly marketing management and introduction to RTM are the lessons which I look foward to and this is no doubt down to lecturer and tutor of this module, Ms Brenda Lim. She's is by far one of the funniest teachers I have ever come across. This makes her lessons lively and in this way, its easier for me to listen and absorb whatever knowledge she has to impart. Another lesson I enjoyed was the French lesson. Yeah, we had a different tutor from the first tutorial and this tutor was way better. As most of my friends know, I'm always been interested in French (the language of romance) but the first tutor almost annihailated my interst. Thank goodness this week's tutor reinstated my faith in the language.
wings tear my body apart at [11:26 PM]
Thursday, April 20, 2006
School has started, met my new classmates. Yeah, some of them were familiar faces like Wan Yi, Ebby, Si yan, Lynette, Sylvia and Chalin. The rest are foriegn faces to me. Ok, maybe not England--Singapore foriegn, its more like Singapore--Malaysia foreign as I've seen them in my lectures. Nonetheless, out of my clique, its only me and Wan Yi and thats like seriously...........horrifying??????? Hahahaha, just kidding mon ami. She's like the only one whom I can really talk to in the class. I don't know why, but I'm not making much effort to know my other classmates and apparently neither are they that eager to know me cause they all came in with their own cliques so they will stick to their own clique rather than mixing with others. Well, i'm not really complaining, though I seriously miss my old class, having classes with all my other closer frens. I hate to admit this, but I actually miss shawn throwing paper balls around in class!!!!! Ahh.......I used talk a lot in tutorials and lectures but now i've reverted to my silent persona. As I said, only got Wan Yi whom I can to talk to comfortably. Though I'm extremely comfortable and to a certain extent, enjoy being a loner la.
wings tear my body apart at [8:42 PM]
Sunday, April 16, 2006
The best way feel better after something that gets you down, is to actually immerse yourself in things you enjoy, simple things sitting at mcdonalds with your friends and chatting, playing games, watching soccer with your friends etc. It doesn't mean that the pain will go away straight away, but at least you're occupied so you can't think about the matter which has made you sad. Its sort of like damage control. The more you dwell on a problem, the deeper the wounds become. So its best to just pick myself up and just live my life like normal, accept this as part of life's many lessons it wants us to learn and be a wiser and stronger person in life.
wings tear my body apart at [2:52 PM]
Friday, April 14, 2006
wings tear my body apart at [9:34 PM]
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
How can I stop trying? I don't want to lose you. I want to stop being here alone without you in my life. No matter what I say here, it won't be of any importance. No matter what I say or whatever words I use, it won't mean a thing. I'm going to show you that I just need to have you in my life. NO MATTER WHAT! I'm just going to do the craziest thing to make you smile again, to make you be part of my life again. And should I, through some sick miracle, happen to fail............then just know that I won't ever forget the times I had with you.
wings tear my body apart at [11:13 AM]
Sunday, April 09, 2006
Got a new blog,but this one's still in use.
wings tear my body apart at [3:49 AM]
Thursday, April 06, 2006
Hmm............this blog post is to answer that annonymus person......
wings tear my body apart at [2:39 AM]