about me
Name: Noah
nickname: Crucifer
Age: 17
From: Singapore
Faves
Music-->Music with heavy rock influences
Books-->Lotr,harry potter,death note,Rave
Tv shows-->Comedies mostly
Game-->Warcraft 3(dota),Command and Conquer
Sport-->Soccer(midfielder)
Color-->Plain classic black
Horoscope-->Scorpio
Explanation
People keep on asking me what my blog address stands for. I have written in a previous entry what this blog address means but as it'll take a long time to locate it, I'll just give a brief explanation here.
Everyone has a dark side, everyone has a good side to them. No one is completely evil nor perfect. So I have characterised this 2 sides of my as crucifer being my dark side and ntljr as my good side. I can't explain how the name Crucifer came about,but its definitely not because of the superband band lucify. Crucifer was a nickname I had for myself for a long time before that. Ntljr basically stands for what every postive feeling, every postitive emotion and quality I have running through me. I have always looked towards "ntljr" as a source of inspiration, and no matter how down I am, I will cling on to that last bit of humanity and hope of "ntljr". This is hard to explain and I doubt anyone will understand as its a matter of emotions and feelings. What ntljr stands for is obvious to but a few, but suffice it to say that it'll always mean something to me. Always.
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
I just found out that for my TEP I have been posted to Marketing Service Centre(MSC), or to explain it simply, there's a high chance I'll be posted to one of the shops in the shopping arcade in NYP. Some have said that I have been posted to Cheers but others have claimed otherwise. Ok, whatever it is, the first 9 weeks is going to suck. Oh and the craziest thing is Wan Yi also go MSC, meaning that i'm going to be with her for at least another 9 weeks(another 9 weeks of being bullied and suaned etc. =O)! Good also, at least there's 1 friendly face I know with me. Hahaha, I know MANY guys would die to be in my position. HOWEVER, if she were to be in the same stopovers as me for the remaining time in TEP, I would really be speechless..............with horror =P. But seriously though, what are the odds.........and I wonder who else is in MSC.Didn't have the best of days today. Slept really late last night, at around 6+am, talking on the phone with Vanessa. Not a really, erm.......pleasant phone conversation. Started out fine at first but got into some topics and questions which were uncomfortable for me to discuss and answer. Thus, of course she wasn't too happy with that and I somehow erm.......got a bit pissed off also. Wrong of me of course and truly sorry I am, but when its 6 in the morning and i'm so tired, its hard for me to keep my good humour. Yeah, well, I'll have to wait till this Thursday when she comes back from London before I can apologize as I doubt she'll call me anymore from now to then. Ok, so anyway I woke up prematurely early at 10am, so didn't have the appetite to eat anything(neither did I have the mood). This lack of appetite continued all the way to the time when I went to play soccer. So basically, I was playing on an empty stomach. Felt real giddy halfway through the game but still forced myself to continue which only made it worse. And from then on till now, I have this nauseous feeling. I ate a light dinner and if anything, the presence of food in my stomach made me feel like puking even more. Couldn't join Shawn in his crapping and wasn't really that responsive either. Next time i guess I'll just force food down my throat if I have no appetite and I have soccer later in the day. I took a walk at my favourite place last night, the night sky was barely lit with the stars. I needed to clear my head over something. Was really relaxing and the wind was just nice, blowing gently and there was no one around. I was alone and listening to my Mp3. The song "In the air tonight" by phill collins somehow was so eerily suitable to describe it all. The tune was soothing, with a kind of mystical quality about it and it was really excellent to listen to when walking there. However, at the end of it all I wasn't really able to clear my head.Ok, enough of it all. Good night everybody.Even as I wander
I'm keeping you in sight
You're like my candle in the window
On those cold dark windless nights
wings tear my body apart at [2:44 AM]
_____________
Monday, September 18, 2006
I walked the world, to you, babeA thousand miles , to youI'd give you all, and have none, babeJust to, just to, just to, to have you here by meBeen working at causeway point for the past 17 days. At the customer service counter, working with kai boon and hazwan. Our jobs mainly consisted of sitting down on chairs, checking receipts, giving away $5 shopping vouchers, watching the world in causeway point go by, spotting any chio girls around, joking with the aunties etc. Not a bad job all in all. Could sometimes get a bit boring cause sometimes there's just nothing for you to do at all but hey, we're being paid for that. Anyway, I always enjoy working at causeway point cause its near my house(even though for 15 of the 17 days I'm late) and the working environment is good. Won't be going through every little detail but here's the more memorable things I encountered.1) Esther! Oh yeah, this girl working as promoter for motorolla for 2 days in the starhub shop next to us. Cute and chio. Got the height, very sweet face and the way she nods to customer really cute.....hahaha, .all 3 of us guys looked in her direction at every opportunity we had. But in the end none of us went to go ask her number or anything cause me and hazwan have other girls in our lives and kai boon have no balls. =P2) First irritating customer. This customer, a 50+ looking uncle blew his top at ME for asking him to follow the rules. The thing is if you want to $5 voucher you've gotta be there in person and can't ask someone else to redeem for you. So his wife went to redeem for herself and for him and I asked her to call her husband to come down to the counter. Came down and scolded me for "setting such a stupid rule". Erm.....dude are you blind? I'm just a part timer and can't do nuts about the rule.3) $5 shopping voucher collecting auntie. This auntie, wearing big specs, 3/4 pants, carrying plastic bags makes a living out of harassing customers for their reciepts and harassing other customers to help her redeem the vouchers. Totally illegal for her to harass others of course. So we had to do some detective work to track her down. Had to tail the customer she asked to redeem the voucher. Oh but she's a sneaky one. Very cunning, always picking those teenagers and non-english speaking people to help her redeem cause they don't know that they've been tricked. It took a while before we tracked her down. I was the first to actually catch her, but as I can't forcefully bring her to security, I could only warn her, scold her, threaten her. The next day she came back and got caught by Kai boon. The 3rd day she still haven't learn her lesson and this time I and wan caught her. This time I spared no mercy, scolding her and threatening her from 1 whole round around causeway point till that bitch ran across a road when a bus was coming and just got across in time to safety, knowing that I won't chase her or I'll be knocked down. Cunning sly. One of the aunties described her as a cockroach. Very true, her actions are that of a cockroach, the way she runs.....everything. Arrgh, I hate this kind of people, got 2 legs 2 hands not handicapped but do this kind of stupid stuff to get a pathetic $5 voucher instead of getting a bloody job. 4) Nancy Teo. The customer that really really pissed us all of. She's the customer that got us fuming and had us thinking of vengence the remaining time we worked. She came on Friday, 2 days before our last day and it so happened that day was going rather well for us. Kai Boon brought a magnetic chess set and we were all happily playing chess and dumb when there were no customers around and as there weren't many people that day, we could really concentrate on the game and it was really very good and intense. Added to that, I was going to meet up with Darius, Poon, Kee Seng later that day. And I saw JR as well. So overall it should be a good day for me right? Well, it was, only for this Nancy Teo,a butch looking bitch. She came to redeem 1 voucher and as the system was lagging, kai boon could do nothing but wait for the computer to finish loading. So while WAITING for the system to load, Kai Boon looked at the chess set, never even touched it, just LOOKED at it, thinking of his next move against Hazwan when she suddenly burst and scolded him for being so slow and not concentrating on his job. Kai Boon tried explaining that the system was lagging but she continued to be stubborn and scolding him. So I, who up to now was uninvolved but was a witness, got a bit angry already, but still I put up my best behaviour and tried to explain it to her too. For doing that, she pointed her finger at me and asked me not to talk back. FOR EXPLAINING! And during the whole redemption process, she was glaring at us. Then after getting the $5 voucher, she went to the guard and said she was going to complain to the management. Turns out she really called and complained about us. But you know what, since we weren't in the wrong, and the aunties were witnesses, her complaint came to naught. But that was really shitty. Ok, that should be about it. I'm lazy to blog anymore. And.......I'm looking for another job. Going to have to save money. Those sweet phone calls from london are going to be expensive. Anyone who got job opening...... tell me!!
wings tear my body apart at [2:17 PM]
_____________