Its not over till I breathe my last gasp of air

Thursday, November 30, 2006

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you
Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you

Its been a long time since I blogged. Hadn't really a lot of time to do so. Its like 1:30 am in the morning now so I'll keep this entry short.

My first TEP stopover is almost ending, only 1 more week or so to go. Unfortunately its ending on a not that good note. Apparently as I'm supposed to be in Unity but instead went to BD cause Unity hasn't opened yet, I have to go get some retail experience so now i'm attached for the 1 week to Value Shop. Just as I was planning to spend the last week of my BD stopover playing CounterStrike and sleeping.........I now have to stand up all day and say "hello welcome" and "thank you, see you again". Oh well, its just 1 week more to classical.........

Took flexi leave today. Went to watch the movie "happy feet" with a date. Erm......I wasn't really that impressed with the movie, in fact, I slept halfway through the movie and had to be embarassingly woken up by my date at the end of the movie. Hahaha, I guess I prefer watching movie with more serious/interesting storylines. Had a surprisingly good dinner at a Japanese restaurant with her though I can't really remember what the name of the restaurant is.

I'll be playing a soccer match against Wan Yi's boyfriend team at Marsiling Apartments. I'm not quite sure how the field is like nor how the opposition is like but we'll just go there and make do with what we have. Truth be told, I'm quite confident in my team and as long as we keep our discipline, we'll be able to come away with a good result. Don't know who Wan Yi will be rooting for, her boyfriend's team or the team with all her friends in it........... I wonder if Gilbert will come and give us support or not, it is after all proven that support from the stands can actually help the team on the field. Especially if the players on the field have something to prove to the supporters or if the players on the field feels inspired by their supporters. A-hem, anyone want to support us? Its 9am in the morning, so i guess that not many would be willing to wake up so early unless they live near there.......

Tomorrow is thursday............time to go e-plaza! hahahaha...........CMY!!!

Ok, will stop here for now.......

I want to run, I want to hide
I want to tear down the walls that hold me inside
I want to reach out and touch the flame
I want to feel sunlight on my face
I see the dust cloud disappear
Without a trace
I want to take shelter from the poison rain
I'm just a face with no name........

wings tear my body apart at [1:27 AM]

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Sunday, November 12, 2006

Well I never pray
But tonight I'm on my knees yeah
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah
I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now
But the airways are clean and there's nobody singing to me now

The Arsenal vs Liverpool game will be starting soon, so I'll try to keep this short and sweet. Haven't been updating lately cause I have had no time.

TUESDAY
18 years ago I was born on this date, 7th November. Actually wanted to keep it low profile but somehow once I went to school, well, it just leaked out immediately.......cause Wan Yi celebrated it by buying me a brownie for me and well, from then on, everyone knew. Thanks too all who celebrated my birthday with me, my BD team, especially who made a special effort to make that day great. Really appreaciate it....a LOT! Thanks to Wan Yi also, and everyone who wished me too! Didn't take Flexi leave that day as I wanted to play soccer so took it the next day instead. Once again, thanks all!

WEDNESDAY
Took flexi so went out with my friend. Won't say who I went out with, cause well, rumours might spread........ though she didn't know that it was my birthday on tuesday, we still had a great time at Junction 8, so thanks to her for making my flexi worthwhile.

THURSDAY
Went to Khairul's house at Tampines as he invited us over for Hari Raya. By us, I mean Xiang yao, shawn, darius, ash gomez and 3 more of his current classmates over. His mum cooked for us and frankly speaking, it was quite superb. She cooked spagetthi with this sauce which was tasty and rather spicy. Haha, all the food was spicy, just the way I like it and just the way shawn can't take it. It was kind of fun seeing him struggle, but seriously, it was really spicy. Thanks for the invitation Khai, thanks to your mum for the delicious dinner and you better keep your younger sister well hidden from Xiang Yao!

FRIDAY
Great laughter, great fun, great slacking day for me. I mean it was the end of the week so was running around school. Met shawn, hanquan, desmon, melvin diu at the e-plaza. We all kind of went high there, they gave my number to this girl at the e-plaza, some friend of a friend of Melvin. Assholes! Hahaha, it was desmond who said she quite pretty but as they wanted to give me a birthday present, they gave her my number.......like what the hell right, that's like the best present ever...............for her!! So anyway, also went to the grassroots club where we put our name down for pool and while waiting, sat in the lounge and crapped alot there. Made a few calls here and there, to that girl's friend(aka melvin's friend) to try and get me to talk to that girl. Haha, played along but was kind of unsuccesful as they saw through it and knew that we were just rubbishing around. Then made another call to one of Melvin's classmate with Hanquan doing a great imitation of a China man's accent in practice but failed when it came to the crunch time. Hahaha damn fun la..........

SATURDAY
Nothing much this day. Just had a visit from my uncle who had a day out from the DRC. Ya....thats about it.....it was raining that day and there was a kind of lazy atmosphere around. Sorry that I couldn't attend the gig at east coast........it would have been fun but my uncle having a day out is very rare...........

SUNDAY
Had a soccer match in the morning. Ended 1-1, they scored first while I tapped in the equalizer. Quite a good result for us considering this was the first time our team played a real game together while the other team played matches every week on sunday at Serangoon JC, which is where the game was held. ONE factor which we didn't count was the heat, the sun was really blazing, it was really terrible. Had to be taken out after 20 minutes to go to the toilet and cool myself down. So when I went back in, I sprayed some icy cool water on me, wet my whole shirt and after that it wasn't that bad anymore. Overall wasn't too bad a game, I could and should have played better and shawn............you should learn how to play from players like Kolo Toure or John Terry, not Boumsong or Bramble..........hahaha....

And believe it or not, this whole blog entry took around 2hours to write. Cause basically I stopped halfway to watch the game and guess what......ARSENAL 3- 0 liverpool!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA!!!!! Ok, that about ends this entry.

I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places
where all the things meet
You know I can't change, I can't change
But I'm here in my mold
And I'm a million different people from one day to the next
I can't change my mold

wings tear my body apart at [11:38 PM]

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Wednesday, November 01, 2006

I hear, a voice say
Don't be so blind
It's telling me all these things, that you could actually be mine
You are, my one and only desire
You are the reason I breathe, but am I the reason you cry

So its been a relatively uneventful week in TEP after last week's events. The BD team relocated itself to the E-plaza at level 2 so as to have more computers to work with instead of the 2 kns computers in the BD room. Actually have been sick, sore throat, flu, fever.....nothing out of the ordinary. So today took urgent flexi leave from 1-6 to rest.

Yesterday went to J8 with my BD team for dinner at Pastamania. Kind of like a BD gathering cum sending off Cheng Pei, who's being attached to one of the outlets at Giordano. Ordered a pizza and shared with Khong Chun as well as ordering a combo A. Not that good ba their pizza. Added a lot of chesse to make it tastier. Took a lot of pictures and had to contend ourself with people who have no idea how to take pictures and end up taking videoes........of us smiling stupidly at the camera for 5-6 seconds. Hahaha, also took a lot of pictures at the playground in Junction 8. Took quite a lot of pictures but spent more time trying to decide on how to pose, where to pose, where to put the camera etc. Unknown to us, there was a security camera also watching us and in the end, we got chased rather rudely out of the playground by the security guard. All of us were rather pissed with the way he chased us out so it kind of was like a relatively bad end to a good day.

Okie, guess I'm going to stop here for now. Still not really fully recovered yet. Hoping to go out this Friday. Otherwise will be damn bored la.........hahaha,maybe its time to follow advise and ask girls out eh.......hahahaha, see how ba.......

I love you, you hurt me, I can’t get around you
I breathe you, can't you see, I can't live without you
I just can't take anymore, this life of solitude
When will I be out of the door, when I'll be done with you?

I wrapped my love around your heart
Why would you tear my world apart?

wings tear my body apart at [11:01 PM]

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What is the truth
What is reality
What can't be removed
Is that part of humanity
See death in those eyes
As the flame dies
Then suddenly arise
Lingering on forever.....