Its not over till I breathe my last gasp of air

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Everytime that I look in the mirror
All these lines on my face gettin' clearer
The past is gone
It went by like dust to dawn
Isn't that the way
Everybody's got their dues in life to pay

A short update.....my tep attachment at EMRS has started. Going through lecture after lecture about the different types of documents is not something and rules of EMRS can really bore me senseless. Sitting there in the lecture seats, I constantly fidget and can never stay still in my seat for more than 5 seconds. My mind too, always wanders off till it becomes almost like my natural instinct to stone away whenever I'm in the lecture. Well, tomorrow I'm going to slip off during the latter part of the day to work in the e-plaza installing some usb cable port or something like that. Think i'll be working with David and some other lab assistant =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. Am hoping to earn and save enough to get myself a keyboard, to practice on. Having learnt basic organ when I was younger(but dropped it then due to a dislike for tests), I think with enough time and hardwork spent, I'll be able to pick up playing the keyboard without too much fuss.

Whether you like it or not, change is imminent in life. As much as you hope to keep things the same way, to never let a moment go, to never let your feelings change, to never let your beliefs be shaken........time has a way of playing with your mind, such that what you thought was true today may be lies tomorrow. Some changes in life are for the best, some changes you may not like. Some, you may have thought would never happen. But we are all human, we live by our circumstances, we are bound to conform to it, and only those who have exceptionally strong willpower and stubbornness will remain where they are. The moot point however, is if it is at all a bad thing to change according to our circumstances. Some may argue that only weak people allow themselves to change, but what if that change of heart, that change of feelings, that change of thoughts actually serve to improve your life? Would you still do it? Or stick to what you believed in, what you felt was, or even maybe what you still FEEL is right?

Food for thought...........or some of my nonsensical blabberings..........lol

Well anyway, looking foward to tomorrow, hopefully all goes well. HOPEFULLY.........=D LOLOLOLOLOL, damn excited...........

Oh and if either Jason, Daryl, Kee Seng, or Roy(some wild chance) is reading this, I've got 1 word for you.............RIIICOLAAAA!!! Rock out baby!

Half my love's in torn unwritten pages
Live and learn from fools and from sages
I know what nobody knows
Where it comes and where it goes
I know it's everybody's sin
You got to lose to know how to win

wings tear my body apart at [9:47 PM]

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Sunday, January 14, 2007

Has he lost his mind?
Can he see or is he blind?
Will he try at all,
If he moves on will he fall?

This current part has some rather foul language. For those of you against foul languages or for those of you balls licking shoe polishing **** sucking whores who support and like a certain supervisor of MSC, Mr CTC, then the next portion I suggest you might want to skip.

So I finally got back the results of my MSC stopover. A god-damned C. Seriously.......F*** that Mr. Cunt pek chee (___). Everyone else from BD got a B, while I only got a C and in his own words, "reluctant to put me D so a C". Nah Bei, act kind ah? Drop the bloody act la you low life chee koh pek. Discipline D, and ONLY discipline D while my summary report gets A, and the rest all B so how the hell does it end up a C??? HuH? trying to screw me over eh? And your biasedness against marketing students? What's up with that? You were bullied till you peed and pooped in your pants when you were 25yrs old by a 18yr old marketing student last time issit? Shows how much you know about the people under you such that you don't even know I'm not a marketing student but a retail student. Too arrogant to be a leader ah? Must be more humble? I don't delve into details ah? Not a positive attitude? Well screw you, you sad excuse for a a**hole licking eunuch. Trust me, one day you'll be looking to me for help and then you'll understand retribution in the truest sense of the word.

And I do feel sorry for Hwee Hua. She definitely did not deserve a C either. DEFINITELY NOT. There's something seriously wrong with this damned TEP system. The marking system especially.

There.....its all out.....

Its sad when information you have stored in your computer over the years is all suddenly wiped out with the click of a button. All my songs, my precious Family Guy videos, the pictures all gone. Everything. Why? Because my dear mum decided to go reformat the computer, without asking me if I wanted to make a backup of anything. I guess she thought that ever since I got my laptop I wouldn't ever need the desktop. I think the worst thing of all that got deleted has got the pictures. Songs and videos can always be gotten back, but pictures contain memories of the past. Well, I may feel the pinch of the deletion of photos now but maybe its for the best that I no longer have to reminisence about the past.....it won't come back no more.

For my classicals, MMD is done, Customer service is also done. Left with Business etiquette(which is tomorrow) and Project Management. Well, MMD took up a lot of my time and effort, everyday and night I'll be taking screenshots here and there,editing,editing,editing. Want to know what it feels like to put in so much effort and most of the time get nothing in return? You don't need to go chase a girl who doesn't like you, all you have to do is a MMD project using Image Composer. I'm not looking foward to doing project management though. Appears to be a very very boring project.

Anyway, if you, like me, thought that the worst weather Singapore has seen in years is over, well, it made a brief appearance again the past few days. Severely restricting everyone's mobility and this has made me extremely adverse to going out the past few days. Really, something is wrong with the weather. A Global warming warning. Lets stop wasting paper, using plastic, and burning stuff. Unless of course, the paper is to stuff down Mr CTC's throat, the plastic used to stuff his remains and the burning used to burn his lifeless corpse. Muahaha, evil..........

Anyway thats about all. Till next time...........

Well if it seems to be real, it's illusion
For every moment of truth, there's confusion in life
Love can be seen as the answer
But love makes you bleed like the dancer
And its goes on and on and on........its Heaven and Hell........

wings tear my body apart at [12:30 AM]

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Saturday, January 06, 2007

Take the time to make some sense
of what you want to say
and cast your words away upon the waves

i'm not saying right is wrong
it's up to us to make
the best of all the things
that come our way..........

First up......Happy 2007 everyone!!! Ok maybe I am 5 days late in wishing but well, its the thought that counts.

Went to countdown the New Year with Shawn, Gilbert and Daryl at Singapore Expo. It was a clubbing event and at first to accomodate 17 year old Daryl, we went to the underage section but soon realised that section was as alive as Saddam. So we had to smuggle the underage "pedo" kid to the adults section where they actually serve you alcohol and the girls are more shameless. We looked over to the kids section occasionally and spotted this mother and daughter sitting down and just.......well, staring into space? Erm, I am one to spend time with the family, I have no qualms about going out with my mum or my dad but there are certain places where you won't ever bring your parents to and one of them is a clubbing event. But ok, enought about that. So how was my first time clubbing? Well, it was more fun than expected......maybe cause its like a new year event so everyone is extra high and the lively atmosphere kind of infected me. As expected with 4 guys around, while we were moving our bodies to the music, we(with the exception of Gilbert) were also looking out for the pretty girls around. And voila! I saw this cute, petite, wide eyed, sexy girl dancing with another girl friend of hers. Coincidentally she is from Shawn's secondary school and I only VERY recently found out her name is Goh Lihong......

AhHhHh,bUt fOuNd oUt sHe'S qUiTe aH LiAnX sO iF I dOn'T wAnT tO hAvE tO rEaD wOrDs LiKe tHiS I gOt tO fOrGeT iT nErRhx!

Anyway now my classicals are coming to an end soon and I think Mr Fuan is a damn good teacher to have. Teaches fast,effectively, efficiently and ends the lesson early........1 day early to be precise. Erm, MMD is interesting but why do they teach such a backdated software? Why not teach Flash or something more useful? I would have been very interested in knowing how to do flash but well, I guess Image Composer would do. Not quite sure how the classicals test will be like but will get down to it as soon as possible, seeing how the previous batch of students were quite stressed over it. I think business process will suck though. Its a bloody dry subject...........no interest at all in that subject.

Went to Seoul Garden just now with Kee Seng, Poon, Jensen, Shawn, Ben, Xiangyao, Gilbert and one of Jensen's friend. Was supposed to meet at4 but ended up all of us were late by 2 hours so had our dinner at 6. Quite a wide variety of food at the Taka outlet, ate our fill, played open number, did some crazy dares which culminated into us running away from the toilet to the carpark. Not going to say why though, just in case some furious person looking for vengence actually goes to google and tries searching for the key words "egg","throw","cubicle" and "hahahaha" to see who's the culprit.

Ok, I'm going to end here for now, its like 5:23 am in the morning and my eyelids weigh a ton. Once again, happy new year to all and best wishes for the coming year of 2007.
7 is my lucky/favourite number so hopefully this year will be extra wonderful for ME!!!=D

One last thought before I go--> Would you rather see the whole picture, or the components that make up a picture??? Think of it theoratically and not practically and you'll realise that you can't really choose....

Cause everything that's been has passed
The answer's in the looking glass
There's four and twenty million doors
On life's endless corridor
No space for more of love sandy shores.....

wings tear my body apart at [2:20 AM]

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What is the truth
What is reality
What can't be removed
Is that part of humanity
See death in those eyes
As the flame dies
Then suddenly arise
Lingering on forever.....