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about me
Name: Noah
nickname: Crucifer
Age: 17
From: Singapore
Faves
Music-->Music with heavy rock influences
Books-->Lotr,harry potter,death note,Rave
Tv shows-->Comedies mostly
Game-->Warcraft 3(dota),Command and Conquer
Sport-->Soccer(midfielder)
Color-->Plain classic black
Horoscope-->Scorpio
Explanation
People keep on asking me what my blog address stands for. I have written in a previous entry what this blog address means but as it'll take a long time to locate it, I'll just give a brief explanation here.
Everyone has a dark side, everyone has a good side to them. No one is completely evil nor perfect. So I have characterised this 2 sides of my as crucifer being my dark side and ntljr as my good side. I can't explain how the name Crucifer came about,but its definitely not because of the superband band lucify. Crucifer was a nickname I had for myself for a long time before that. Ntljr basically stands for what every postive feeling, every postitive emotion and quality I have running through me. I have always looked towards "ntljr" as a source of inspiration, and no matter how down I am, I will cling on to that last bit of humanity and hope of "ntljr". This is hard to explain and I doubt anyone will understand as its a matter of emotions and feelings. What ntljr stands for is obvious to but a few, but suffice it to say that it'll always mean something to me. Always.
Monday, January 23, 2006
A person scarred by the sins and the pains of his life, learns much faster than a person who's life is perfect. I've learnt to not hope,to not dream, not to believe in anything.......or anyone. The world is too unpredictable,too cruel for useless things like that. Trust,love and friendship are all just like dust in the wind........easily destroyed and quite impossible to last in one place forever. So why do I still live my life based on these? I've been hurt over and over and OVER again,in different ways and by different people.....you would think I'd have learnt my lesson by now......But I believe I've been hurt so many times that I'm right now addicted and used to it. I've gotten used to the feeling of waking up and having a sinking feeling about the day ahead of me......in fact,I don't really have a reason to wake up in the morning.......I thought I recently found the reason but I don't really think there ever was one......Don't think there ever will be one........I'm a loner....I'll be alone in soul and in spirit.......I doubt I'll ever find someone to share my soul with,my problems,my thoughts........I hate raising my hopes that the someone has been found before dashing it so cruelly and so quickly........but this feeling of hate is a feeling which I embrace....its the only feeling I trust.....the only feeling I should feel......
I need to take a look at my life and realise what my priorities are.......me, me and me.....that's all I should ever care about,myself and no one else......cause no one else will ever care for me.....
Hahahahahahaha YEAH!!!!! THE SILENT LONER HAS RETURNED!!!
Sweet.......
wings tear my body apart at [7:54 PM]