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about me
Name: Noah
nickname: Crucifer
Age: 17
From: Singapore
Faves
Music-->Music with heavy rock influences
Books-->Lotr,harry potter,death note,Rave
Tv shows-->Comedies mostly
Game-->Warcraft 3(dota),Command and Conquer
Sport-->Soccer(midfielder)
Color-->Plain classic black
Horoscope-->Scorpio
Explanation
People keep on asking me what my blog address stands for. I have written in a previous entry what this blog address means but as it'll take a long time to locate it, I'll just give a brief explanation here.
Everyone has a dark side, everyone has a good side to them. No one is completely evil nor perfect. So I have characterised this 2 sides of my as crucifer being my dark side and ntljr as my good side. I can't explain how the name Crucifer came about,but its definitely not because of the superband band lucify. Crucifer was a nickname I had for myself for a long time before that. Ntljr basically stands for what every postive feeling, every postitive emotion and quality I have running through me. I have always looked towards "ntljr" as a source of inspiration, and no matter how down I am, I will cling on to that last bit of humanity and hope of "ntljr". This is hard to explain and I doubt anyone will understand as its a matter of emotions and feelings. What ntljr stands for is obvious to but a few, but suffice it to say that it'll always mean something to me. Always.
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Humans are interesting and complicated creatures. We always say we want to be happy,but yet,most of the time we are not. And most of the time its due to our minds that make us unhappy. We are attracted to controversy and sad events but yet ignore those who try to make this help those in need. Case in point, how many of you will bother to read about Bono(from U2) and his efforts to stop starvation in Africa? Most of you would rather read about Michael Jackson being being on persecuted or David Beckham not being able to do his son's maths homework. Similarly, in our lives, we tend to remember and dwell on the unhappy events and ignore the things that makes us smile and laugh. I'm guilty of that too. I always remember the things that made my life a living hell but forget about the times when I felt I was in Heaven. We always think that happiness is so far away, so out of reach but actually when we look around us, we will be able to see that there are actually so many things to be happy about. I know that in the past, I would constantly dwell on what happened and be sad and unhappy with my life. Unfortunately, at that time I didn't truly see the people who were standing with me supporting me through that torrid time because if I had, I would have realised that I'm a really lucky person to have such support. Jim Carrey once said that "it would be good if everytime we felt like our hearts were ripped out and put out for the seagulls,we could see it as a comedy and laugh about it". Granted, no one can smile all the time, no one can be happy all the time, but by trying to look on the bright side of everything, we can at least ease the pain, and let time heal our wounds. True, some scars will remain forever but its these scars that will make us stronger, serving us as a reminder of what to do and what not to do, making us realise that these are the scars of the important battles we won in our lives. So instead of trying to hide our scars, we should show them off and proudly proclaim that you won, that it did not defeat you or break your spirit, that you're still going strong despite the setbacks in your life. Myself, I have suffered emotionally and mentally, I have been to the lowest point of my life so far and I have got out of the pit of despair and now, I appreciate everything around me even more, love the things I love even more, care more for the people I care about, laugh when previously I would have smiled. I realised that I was never really ever alone. Its all a mental game, how strong are you to overcome it?
I'm happy you're happy.......
Don't lose your smile!!! =D
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