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about me
Name: Noah
nickname: Crucifer
Age: 17
From: Singapore
Faves
Music-->Music with heavy rock influences
Books-->Lotr,harry potter,death note,Rave
Tv shows-->Comedies mostly
Game-->Warcraft 3(dota),Command and Conquer
Sport-->Soccer(midfielder)
Color-->Plain classic black
Horoscope-->Scorpio
Explanation
People keep on asking me what my blog address stands for. I have written in a previous entry what this blog address means but as it'll take a long time to locate it, I'll just give a brief explanation here.
Everyone has a dark side, everyone has a good side to them. No one is completely evil nor perfect. So I have characterised this 2 sides of my as crucifer being my dark side and ntljr as my good side. I can't explain how the name Crucifer came about,but its definitely not because of the superband band lucify. Crucifer was a nickname I had for myself for a long time before that. Ntljr basically stands for what every postive feeling, every postitive emotion and quality I have running through me. I have always looked towards "ntljr" as a source of inspiration, and no matter how down I am, I will cling on to that last bit of humanity and hope of "ntljr". This is hard to explain and I doubt anyone will understand as its a matter of emotions and feelings. What ntljr stands for is obvious to but a few, but suffice it to say that it'll always mean something to me. Always.
Sunday, April 16, 2006
The best way feel better after something that gets you down, is to actually immerse yourself in things you enjoy, simple things sitting at mcdonalds with your friends and chatting, playing games, watching soccer with your friends etc. It doesn't mean that the pain will go away straight away, but at least you're occupied so you can't think about the matter which has made you sad. Its sort of like damage control. The more you dwell on a problem, the deeper the wounds become. So its best to just pick myself up and just live my life like normal, accept this as part of life's many lessons it wants us to learn and be a wiser and stronger person in life.
Its not as easy as I make it sound. Its incredibly hard, but challenge yourself, how strong are you mentally and emotionally? How confident are you in yourself to be able to take the problems you face in your stride? For myself, I am always confident in myself and it'll take something very very huge to really upset me. Every time I wake up, its a new day, a new beginning to do everything that needs to be done. They say the past is the past, that's where it'll remain, just a memory, yet each memory has shaped us into what we've become today. So there is no need for us to look back and regret, no need to look back and wonder what might have been, just to look foward and work towards what you want it to be.
Solitude, insanity,illusions,,lies,deception,greed,lust........................
Let us not be drawn into these just because something doesn't go our way
You may have bled before, you may be bleeding now, you may wish that things will change for the better, you may wish that life and love will go your way from now on, you may hate what happened, you may hate what is happening, you may have let yourself drown in sorrow, you may have let yourself fall from grace.................
No more "may have"
Just think "will have"
Thats the key to being happy if your sad now............
Life is so unpredictable, it can deal you a full hand or a busted flush.
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