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Jek Yew,
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Gilbert,
Li Qin,
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credits
about me
Name: Noah
nickname: Crucifer
Age: 17
From: Singapore
Faves
Music-->Music with heavy rock influences
Books-->Lotr,harry potter,death note,Rave
Tv shows-->Comedies mostly
Game-->Warcraft 3(dota),Command and Conquer
Sport-->Soccer(midfielder)
Color-->Plain classic black
Horoscope-->Scorpio
Explanation
People keep on asking me what my blog address stands for. I have written in a previous entry what this blog address means but as it'll take a long time to locate it, I'll just give a brief explanation here.
Everyone has a dark side, everyone has a good side to them. No one is completely evil nor perfect. So I have characterised this 2 sides of my as crucifer being my dark side and ntljr as my good side. I can't explain how the name Crucifer came about,but its definitely not because of the superband band lucify. Crucifer was a nickname I had for myself for a long time before that. Ntljr basically stands for what every postive feeling, every postitive emotion and quality I have running through me. I have always looked towards "ntljr" as a source of inspiration, and no matter how down I am, I will cling on to that last bit of humanity and hope of "ntljr". This is hard to explain and I doubt anyone will understand as its a matter of emotions and feelings. What ntljr stands for is obvious to but a few, but suffice it to say that it'll always mean something to me. Always.
Thursday, April 20, 2006
School has started, met my new classmates. Yeah, some of them were familiar faces like Wan Yi, Ebby, Si yan, Lynette, Sylvia and Chalin. The rest are foriegn faces to me. Ok, maybe not England--Singapore foriegn, its more like Singapore--Malaysia foreign as I've seen them in my lectures. Nonetheless, out of my clique, its only me and Wan Yi and thats like seriously...........horrifying??????? Hahahaha, just kidding mon ami. She's like the only one whom I can really talk to in the class. I don't know why, but I'm not making much effort to know my other classmates and apparently neither are they that eager to know me cause they all came in with their own cliques so they will stick to their own clique rather than mixing with others. Well, i'm not really complaining, though I seriously miss my old class, having classes with all my other closer frens. I hate to admit this, but I actually miss shawn throwing paper balls around in class!!!!! Ahh.......I used talk a lot in tutorials and lectures but now i've reverted to my silent persona. As I said, only got Wan Yi whom I can to talk to comfortably. Though I'm extremely comfortable and to a certain extent, enjoy being a loner la.
But you know what? I don't really care cause during the breaks all of us still meet up for lunch and still crap about! Yea, I'm actually amazed that even though all of us have split up, majority of them being in TEP and Sean in CRM, we still manage to find the 12pm slot available for lunch! So basically, I'm just "alone"(haha,ok, with wan yi la-->must stress this point otherwise she say I act pathetic =D) during lessons but during breaks nonsense reigns again! Hahahaha, seeing shawn mess his table while eating, seeing khairul laugh like mad and saying "noob", crapping with ashley and darius, chatting with lex and sean and jek and feli and lihua, getting suaned by Wan Yi left right centre,24/7. May the good times never end! =P
Yeah, may the good times never end..................but I know that for every beginning there is an end, its just a matter of when. Just a matter of when and how it ends.
You know I'm still kicking myself for my foolishness, my inability to cherish what I had. I miss you, miss everything about you. I miss your calls, I miss calling you whenever I feel like talking to someone, miss your laughter, miss your cheerfulness, simply every little thing about you.........
wings tear my body apart at [8:42 PM]