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about me
Name: Noah
nickname: Crucifer
Age: 17
From: Singapore
Faves
Music-->Music with heavy rock influences
Books-->Lotr,harry potter,death note,Rave
Tv shows-->Comedies mostly
Game-->Warcraft 3(dota),Command and Conquer
Sport-->Soccer(midfielder)
Color-->Plain classic black
Horoscope-->Scorpio
Explanation
People keep on asking me what my blog address stands for. I have written in a previous entry what this blog address means but as it'll take a long time to locate it, I'll just give a brief explanation here.
Everyone has a dark side, everyone has a good side to them. No one is completely evil nor perfect. So I have characterised this 2 sides of my as crucifer being my dark side and ntljr as my good side. I can't explain how the name Crucifer came about,but its definitely not because of the superband band lucify. Crucifer was a nickname I had for myself for a long time before that. Ntljr basically stands for what every postive feeling, every postitive emotion and quality I have running through me. I have always looked towards "ntljr" as a source of inspiration, and no matter how down I am, I will cling on to that last bit of humanity and hope of "ntljr". This is hard to explain and I doubt anyone will understand as its a matter of emotions and feelings. What ntljr stands for is obvious to but a few, but suffice it to say that it'll always mean something to me. Always.
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
It was a eventful monday today. Didn't go to school as I had something important to do, anyway there was only 2 hours of lessons today so i'm not really missing out on much. What I had to do was see a special someone I haven't seen in quite awhile, and today was her special day. Yes, today's was Vanessa birthday. Her 17th birthday and I wanted to be the one who celebrated it with her on this day. I was quite surprised actually when she said ok to my asking her out for a date today. Apparently she finished her classes at 11 today so basically the whole afternoon and evening was mine to entertain her with.
Brought her to eat at my Uncle's Restaurant for dinner. The restaurant was a Thai restaurant. The food was good, tasty, and it was extremely spicy! Haha, I have a rather moderate tolerance to spice but the Thai chefs must really outdid themselves in spoiling us with lots of spices. I mean I was sweating after the 3rd dish was served and thats like................noob.......I can't think of a better expression(and thats kind of sad if you think about it). BUT, Vanessa was totally unaffected by the devilish spiciness and even added some chilli padi!!!!! I mean.....I'm lost for words....I'm put to shame completely........hahaha, and apparently the sight of me "pia-ing" the heat is quite a funny sight because Vanessa laughed real hard and described my look as " red faced, sweating and eyes almost popping out".................
Anyway it was lucky that because the boss of the restaurant is my uncle, I had several privelages like using the VIP room so I could decorate the room beforehand and put her birthday cake(which I had taken almost the whole of Sunday to successfully bake =D). Oh and her present was something not very practical but something which I hope she likes. I bought her this Bouquet of Blue Roses with a Pooh bear holding it(cost a bomb--I'm dead broke) and a bracelet which I made myself. So anyway after dinner I led her to the VIP room for her "surprise".
Well anyway, I'm not going to go so much into details here, just a rather rough summary of the day. I truly hoped she enjoyed herself today. I'm really not myself now, feeling a bit light headed somehow. Haha,will go to sleep for now......
And when I saw her, I wanted to hug her, to kiss her, to embrace her, to hold her and never let her get away from me again......
But I know I can't, cause she's got someone else to hold her now.......
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