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recent
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I'm in serious need of sleep,been sleeping extreme...
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Ohhhh.......man........yesterday was the nyp open ...
This is the result from a personality test i tookY...
Yesterday was turbulent,totally drained, really un...
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past
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credits
about me
Name: Noah
nickname: Crucifer
Age: 17
From: Singapore
Faves
Music-->Music with heavy rock influences
Books-->Lotr,harry potter,death note,Rave
Tv shows-->Comedies mostly
Game-->Warcraft 3(dota),Command and Conquer
Sport-->Soccer(midfielder)
Color-->Plain classic black
Horoscope-->Scorpio
Explanation
People keep on asking me what my blog address stands for. I have written in a previous entry what this blog address means but as it'll take a long time to locate it, I'll just give a brief explanation here.
Everyone has a dark side, everyone has a good side to them. No one is completely evil nor perfect. So I have characterised this 2 sides of my as crucifer being my dark side and ntljr as my good side. I can't explain how the name Crucifer came about,but its definitely not because of the superband band lucify. Crucifer was a nickname I had for myself for a long time before that. Ntljr basically stands for what every postive feeling, every postitive emotion and quality I have running through me. I have always looked towards "ntljr" as a source of inspiration, and no matter how down I am, I will cling on to that last bit of humanity and hope of "ntljr". This is hard to explain and I doubt anyone will understand as its a matter of emotions and feelings. What ntljr stands for is obvious to but a few, but suffice it to say that it'll always mean something to me. Always.
Sunday, February 05, 2006
There's a chinese saying "hao xin mei hao bao" which directly translates into good heart = no good outcome......Somehow I'm starting to believe in that saying now. I am suddenly troubled and worried about so many things and I realise that for once I need to have someone by my side supporting me,helping me, someone to really care for me and really be here for me and with me.......instead of doing things and solving all my troubles alone..........I hope to seriously find peace now........or someone to share my burden right now to ease my turmoil......
I turn to writing for a temporary way out
The sword of flames
Is plunged in my soul
Yet my heart and spirit
Remains in the cold
I'm tired and lonely
I don't know if I did right
Dark is the path I chose
With no end in my sight
Redemption and devastation
It wasn't that I really meant
My concience is killing
To have broken the law god sent
Will a angel be sent
With love in her heart
My life needs to be mend
Can the angel do the part?
wings tear my body apart at [3:25 PM]