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about me
Name: Noah
nickname: Crucifer
Age: 17
From: Singapore
Faves
Music-->Music with heavy rock influences
Books-->Lotr,harry potter,death note,Rave
Tv shows-->Comedies mostly
Game-->Warcraft 3(dota),Command and Conquer
Sport-->Soccer(midfielder)
Color-->Plain classic black
Horoscope-->Scorpio
Explanation
People keep on asking me what my blog address stands for. I have written in a previous entry what this blog address means but as it'll take a long time to locate it, I'll just give a brief explanation here.
Everyone has a dark side, everyone has a good side to them. No one is completely evil nor perfect. So I have characterised this 2 sides of my as crucifer being my dark side and ntljr as my good side. I can't explain how the name Crucifer came about,but its definitely not because of the superband band lucify. Crucifer was a nickname I had for myself for a long time before that. Ntljr basically stands for what every postive feeling, every postitive emotion and quality I have running through me. I have always looked towards "ntljr" as a source of inspiration, and no matter how down I am, I will cling on to that last bit of humanity and hope of "ntljr". This is hard to explain and I doubt anyone will understand as its a matter of emotions and feelings. What ntljr stands for is obvious to but a few, but suffice it to say that it'll always mean something to me. Always.
Sunday, June 11, 2006
Wow, finally the holidays have started. Actually its just 2 weeks break but i'm gonna relish every moment of it. The last week has not been the best for me. Frankly, the last week sucked. I fell sick, got a cold, fever and a severe sore throat. The fever was especially irritating, I don't mind having a cold or sore throat but fever completely shuts down my brain system. I went to the doctor on Monday to get a MC and he kindly issued me a 2 day MC which was useless as I had French and ICT presentation on Tuesday and I didn't want to miss it. So on Tuesday I went to school but not before consuming my medicine which had a nasty effect of making the consumer drowsy, resulting in me going through my presentations in a zombie like state. Whether it'll affect my marks, I have no idea as of yet nor am I going to worry myself over it. Oh and to add to my discomfort, the antibiotics I took made me experience extreme pain in my stomach, which after visiting the doctor 2days later, was diagnosed as gastric and that the medicine aggravated it. No idea how come I have gastric problem. Anyway the timing of falling sick couldn't have been worse, as the last week was a hectic week with Mkting Mgmt project and EFMA project deadline falling on Friday and Thursday respectively. Add to that the aforesaid 2 presentations and Business Law. I just wonder why I can't fall sick some other time. Big THANKS to both my EFMA and Mkting Mgmt group project members.
THE WORLD CUP IS FINALLY HERE!!! Yea man, finally the biggest soccer competition in the world is here, the most prestigious cup in soccer is up for grabs. Which team do I support? No particular team actually but I have a soft spot for France though I won't be watching their matches if its in the wee hours of the morning as their play is boring. My prediction for the country to win this competiton is the host Germany. No reasons why. Just a feeling. Common sense though dictates that Brazil should win this cup with ease but as I always say, the ball is round and you can never truly predict what will happen.
Rejection is hard to take, it doesn't matter even if you know from the start that your chances of sucess is low and improbable, your heart will always choose to believe in that improbability. And when you fail, you fall hard on the jagged rocks of reality numbing your body and every of your senses for that moment. It is the same for every body, but it hurts even more so when you are truly sincere and passionate in your love. There is no fitting word nor action to describe this pain, the chaos in your mind distorting the dimensions of rational thought, the inferno which burned brightly in your heart and fuelled your passion,your love and your dream extiguinshed in that moment when you get rejected. Weathering the storm and onslaught of the recurring memory of that moment for countless days and endless nights, its the start of an ardous journey and uphill task to move on and be no longer ensnared by the shackles of rejection.................
Actually to put it in a nutshell, rejection sucks. Haha, I just wanted to indulge myself in trying out using a dramatic style of writing.
The dream is dead
wings tear my body apart at [3:34 AM]